hallelujah.

2008-02-10T06:15:00.000-08:00

FUCK. I HATE MY FAMILY SO ?! YES IS CHU SI , AND IM CURSING MY WHOLE FAMILY TO DIE. YTD MY UNCLE SCOLDS ME BENDAN. HE SAID " YOUR LIFE SO GOOD GO TAROT CARDS FOR WHAT. BENDAN " HEY THANKS UNCLE. YOU THINK MY LIFE IS GREAT ???????? COME FEEL IT IF YOU WANT. PROBLEMS ALL CHOKE IN TO MY HEART. YOU THINK IM HAPPY?! IF YOU ALL SO UNHAPPY WITH ME. JUST SLAP ME. AND STOP NAGGING ME EVERYDAY.. FUCK IS SO IRRITATING . HOW I WISH I COULD JUST ROT AND DIE NOW. YOU THINK BEING ME SO GREAT./ FUCKING RICH FUCKING FREEDOM FUCKING KEEP UR PROBLEMS TO HEART. CHOKE IN EVERY FUCKING SINGLE VAIN IN ME.YOU KNOW IT HURTS SO MUCH TO SEE MYSELF IN A STATE LIKE THIS. IT HURTS. I CANT STOP CRYING WHEN I FUCKING TYPING THIS. AND NO ONE UNDERSTANDS. CALL ME A BITCH WHO DONT EVEN RESPECT OWN FAMILY. IM RUDE & WHAT SO EVER. I WANT TO LIVE MY OWN LIFE. NOT HOLDING PEOPLE'S COMMENTS. I HATE SMILING. I HATE TREATING PEOPLE SO GOOD. I HATE BEING A FAKE ME.

TMR YOU ARE GOING IN.
I DONT KNOW WHO I CAN RELY ON.
MAYBE I SHOULD JUST STAY AT HOME SLP TILL THE NEXT DAY AND CONTINUE.
.....

2008-02-08T06:14:00.000-08:00

today is friday.
3 more days till the end of the world for me.
god bless me.
good luck to you.
hope nothing happens.
love you .

I'll hold your hand even if i leave this world.
you know how much you meant to me.
1701 =')

2008-02-06T20:36:00.000-08:00

I need a break from everything manxzxzxzxz

Byeeeeee
oh ya think i creating a new blog soon.
aiya i get sick of this link
maybe hosting a site soon
dont know.

Blogspot , or my own site.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Anw , happy CNY all :)
uh yeah maybe going out during midnight.
bored siahhhhs.

2008-02-02T20:28:00.000-08:00

New computer , yay. screen super big means i can see clearer yay yay
newnewnewnewnewnewnew
I'm creating a new blog skin baaaaaa.
the whole thing shall be like photoshop-ed
so i wont need to do those useless html
kinda happy
yet busy & nervous ( NEVER FELT LIKE THIS BEFORE )

Currently : Rushing my art ( coasters ) and Studying my maths [ EVEN THOU IM BLOGGING RIGHT NOW! ]

i'm having a terrible zombie lifestyle..i'm lack of sleep
REALLY LACK OF SLEEP.
Ah sh!t , need adjust my time back again yo

School's bad.. real bad i mean. In almost all my post i didn't really post about sch or maybe every post? i don't know leys. always post about outings. Today's bout sch. i'm missing school real bad.. i mean REALLY very bad. not as i MISS school. i mean MISSED school like not going to sch. i have not going to sch , like 9-10 days already i mean as for this past 3 weeks! I thought it will be like last year (SLACK SLACK SLACK) didn't study , pon ten almost EVERY lesson.

Now , i just missed a class. Thats it, i can't catch up with work at all.
This coming monday is common test and i just found out that i'm stuck without knowing anything during thursday. after i MC-ed 2 days. I cried so badly at home yesterday , why i actually do this to myself , just because of laziness? lack of sleep? i don't know , is really driving me crazy. i don't wanna fail this year , i don't wanna retain and lose all my hopes to go into NAFA or SOTA , i know i'm not good at drawing.. But i'm trying to do my best. Yet i'm skipping lessons always. and i'm like doing this.. since forever. I don't wanna make my parents , my family to worry for me or be dissapointed in me. Even I myself , think i dissapoint myself. Always "talk no action" , i just found out that the more i don't go , the more i fall back. 2nd week was alright , doing all my files , happily going sch , friends and stuff. happy mood smiles smiles smiles. Then i start losing myself over everything. Changing of timetables make me sick. Teachers suck. Especially my chinese teacher. I didn't purposely wanna talk back to her during thursday. I knew is was my fault 'cos i didn't respect her. I don't know.. aiyah is really making me siao already. As you know , i don't like to pass my homeworks , i will do but don't keep NAGGING me saying my name say i never pass up and stuff. walao , really very irritating one loh

Hmm. Now i'm feeling much better.
At least there's somewhere to say

ohyeah.
during thursday.
in the class i think someone farted her/his way to my side of the classroom
super smelly i tell you.
randomly alicia & jovina was smelling it
vivian say " dont haf what? where got ? "
apparantly from what i know , people who fart , can't smell
so i dont know. maybe is her WAHAHAHAHA
ok i dont wanna be bad guy alr.
lol. damn FARNIE omg
hahahahah

others don't need to read.
i will continue to write.

xoxos
EAT YOUR DINNER LAR PEOPLE. STILL READ

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Bibi , 11 feb's coming..i don't know how am i gonna express all the love i cud give to you when you are inside.I'm not a romantic person..i can't make a guy feel very "LOVED" . Really sorry. sigh , i don't know how i'm gonna be outside without you..Your messages , your smile , your hand , your kiss , your hug , your cigeratte(LOL) , your voice..everything .. Now the only thing i could do is to accompany you whenever you want me to. I'll be thr in your worse moment. loving you till the end.
1701
=)

no one ask u to read this lor :(

2008-01-29T21:32:00.000-08:00

Like hello ?
only me and puven want to go toilet what.
i wanted to go back.
is like around 12.40 alr _l_ _l_
go back let tcher gan then stay back ah _l_ _l_
then VIVIAN AND HUIZHONG followed us.
then today say is me who wanted to pon ask them follow ____l____
EH CHIBAI . is i and puven. I NEVER ASK YOU FOLLOW ONE LOR!!!!!!!!
My ashley brush and palette , i never kick your ass you count yourself lucky already
BITCH
STOP GIVING ME THE " hehe sorry la hehehehehe"
HEHE LANJIAO OK. this is serious shit. chibai
chibai is not about the detention. I CAN GO ONE LAR.
suspension also can
but please la is YOUR FAULT BODOH!!!!!!!!!!
You want follow then tell in front of me and mr izwandi
say ME ( my idea )

nbpcb

I hate to drag myself to sch almost every fucking day cos' of you both SHIT . blablabla you think i'm not always serious . LIKE FUCK YOU LAH!!!! i am serious sometimes i really want to study ASSHOLE.this year sec 3 not sec 1 .

I don't mind being discriminated ( E.g fat blabla ) - ESPECIALLY TO YOU. Jonathan
IF YOU EVER SEE THIS. ______________l_______________ ( give you )
I don't mind people using my stuff without asking permission even if i'm pissed for like 5 secs -_-!
I don't mind being called a playgirl. a hongster & someone's who is not serious.
I don't mind I REALLY DONT.

But something. Please lor. i deserve some fucking respect from you people.
CHIBAI!
USE MY THINGS OK LAH.
THEN LTR SURE IS YOU WASH RIGHT!
those palette blabla
THEN WHAT? I WASH ?!
dream on la fucker.
Push all the responsibilities to MUI?
fuck your mother 18 generation asshole fucking whore slut go eat shit you bloody shit buang caohai syphillis aids fucking bitch.

Ya thanks
i think im so crazy over this
i am really crazy.

CHIBAI
YOU WANT RESPECT FROM ME.
YOU NEED RESPECT ME FIRST.

No xoxos.
only _l_ to everyone.
BYE FUCKERs

2008-01-25T03:51:00.000-08:00

OHMYGOD
I GOT NOTHING TO BLOG SUDDENLY
SUDDENLY OMG.
WHY AM I TALKING TO MYSELF.
SHOUTING IN ROOM
OMG
I DONT KNOW
LOL.
I KNOW YOU THINK I'M CRAZY BY NOW
OMG
OMG
OMG
WHATS HAPPENING TO ME
LOL
I GETTING MY IMAC TMR
YAY IT HAS WINDOWS.
CAN GAMING AGAIN.
WAIT. I DONT EVEN THINK I HAVE TIME
LOL
IM LIKE TALKING SHIT NOW
HEHEHEHEHEHE
I THINK MY PMS COMING
OH SHIT
WHY
WHY
PMS SUPER MA FAN ;(
MOODSWING TILL SHENJING
I MISS SO MANY PEOPLE.
GAYSIA THE FIRST
SISTERS.
BOYF.
HAHAHAHAHA.
I BOUGHT SO MUCH THINGS LIKE YESTERDAY.
I SPEND UTTERLY $800
EVERYTHING WAS ON SALE!!!!
I BOUGH A GUESS WALLET FOR MYSELF
YAY
I SHOULD STOP CRAPPING AND
EAT MY DINNER.
WAIT
WHERE'S MY DINNER
I DON'T KNOW.
I GO FIND OR SOMETHING
LOL
BYE
TOODLES

xoxo

2008-01-22T21:28:00.000-08:00

Bahaha
PEISHAN THIS POST FORRR YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU.
alluh bout this fking coach

HE make one xiaomeimei cry leh :(
SO XIN TONG LOR PEISHAN.
LOLLLLLLLL. then see her cry we also like want burn th coach hair lol. cb

Blogger sucks, it keep lagging like. forever. omg -_- or am i even having a such noob comp. -_- whatever i don't care. Clans are at my house psp-ing , wth?! today never go sch again lol.. teacher didn't call. YAY , sucha miracle ; haha

Maybe you don't trust me
maybe you never care.
maybe a toy or something
i dont know -_-l
OKAY I THINKING ALOT AGAIN
I NEED MY MEDI LIKE NOW. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

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2008-01-20T16:06:00.000-08:00

I'm jealous.
I'm crazy
I'm xiaoqi.

Why im jealous over ur testimonials , comments.
MOSTLY ALL GIRLS LOR.
the more i read the more i want cry
K I SHOULD NOT CRY. I KNOW
JEALOUSY. ALWAYS JEALOUSY
EVERY RELATIONSHIPS I ALSO LIKETHAT
WHATS WITH ME?!!?!?!
CANT I REALLY JUST STOP CARING OVER EVERYTHING
JUST PARALYZING MYSELF WILL BE GREAT.
THEN I'LL BE HAPPY , AND PEOPLE AROUND ME TOO.
FAKING A MASK. LIKE ALWAYS.
SMILE TO ENTERTAIN PEOPLE.
GREAT
ILOVEMYLIFE.
I DONT KNOW WHY IM MOODSWINGING TOO.

YAY
IM GOING CRAZY
SEND ME TO IHMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME.
especially you...

2008-01-19T07:26:00.000-08:00

Nowadays i dont go out in the afternoon anymore liao lor,fuck. Everyday at night then go out -_-ll Zombie lifestyle ah!

LOL i love oi bai muacks

   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
_)_
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
_(_
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
_)(_
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
_()_
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
_)(_ like butt sia
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
lol
Yanhan. i dont want go out anymore ): ! says:
IS BUTT WAT!!
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
UR BUTT
Yanhan. i dont want go out anymore ): ! says:
HAHHAHA
Yanhan. i dont want go out anymore ): ! says:
CB
Yanhan. i dont want go out anymore ): ! says:
urs la

then she asked me to...

   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
eeeeeeeeeee
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
u like to cb here cb ther one lor
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
so vulgar
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
must be more lady
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
dont use cb
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:

   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
hmmmmmmmm
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
just say
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
&^%#$@$%^&*()(*&^%4

then we....

Yanhan. i dont want go out anymore ): ! says:
!@$%&*($#
Yanhan. i dont want go out anymore ): ! says:
go slp la @#$^&*&
Yanhan. i dont want go out anymore ): ! says:
pls @#$%^&
Yanhan. i dont want go out anymore ): ! says:
i noe la @#$%^&
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
*^$%#@$%^%&
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
ahhahahaha
Yanhan. i dont want go out anymore ): ! says:
!@#$%^&*(&^%$#
Yanhan. i dont want go out anymore ): ! says:
hahahaha
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
$%#%^&$%^&
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
funny sia
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
&^#$%@$%^&%^*

then ltr..

   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         is sending a sound.
Action: Play "buddha"
Yanhan. i dont want go out anymore ): ! says:
HAHAHAHAHA
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
hahahhahahhahha
Yanhan. i dont want go out anymore ): ! says:
make me slp
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
$#@#@$%#^&*&^%$#@
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
lol
   VIVIAN     ! [[;    ADD           vivianvivian-@hotmail.com         says:
ok
Yanhan. i dont want go out anymore ): ! says:
@#$%^&*

ya we decided to go sleep.
OKAY
so i gonna sleep now.
is 11pm+ and i just reached home crapping with vivian th moment i on comp!
oi bai pls be HONOURED
tired hell.

i miss baby.
yo. talk on fone then slp la boring
dont want sleep already

SHIT !

i needa really shut up. i talked too much & i seriously talking no link stuff this few days. WHAT IN THE WORLD IS HAPPENING TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tmr will post pics for today :) out with clans.

2008-01-18T06:13:00.000-08:00

Spending days along with sisters yo.
my laoporhx andds vivian ( oi BAI _)_ )
heexss ha0xx gud sisters . mwarkiies.

morning , weekend or nights with clans! DUH! my fav people. hoho
sch , sisters too.
today and yesterday with bf :)
i'm loving life more i guess. got nice people around me.

alluh!! of cause got my lomanticcc bf.
sometimes you do say those words that actually make me fucking hurt.fucking make me jealous. i still love you alot. 11 feb, no matter what happen i'll wait for you to come out to celebrate our belated one month , maybe 2 =P and your birthday and valentine's!!!!!
hahhahaa.
=') 遇见你是最美丽的意外
Even thought you always bully me :(
si lao sai :D

Nowadays going out till quite late even thought i give myself a 10pm curfew. i still come back after midnight.apparently i can't tahan myself at home too long LOL!!!!

2008-01-15T06:16:00.000-08:00

!!!!!!!!!
I AM SO FUCKING ANGRY
omgomgomg. if you EVER read this or see this
stop giving me that OHMYGOD look lor.
Yes i am working at limbang mac.

Firstly everyone asked if i'm in need of money or what.
To tell you.
Sorry i'm not.

I'm not short of cash
I'm not poor
I'm just trying to waste my time.
Rather then stay at home sleep and eat and routine agn.
I HATE BEING LOOKED DOWN COS' IM WORKING IN MAC
HELLO?!?!?!!? you just fucking ask my close friends.
i don't work for money. i work for fun.
& of cos , know friends and collegues.
yerp. thats it.
So please don't give me th " O.M.G why yanhan wearing that fugly uniform at limbang.. this is crazy i thought she's rich "

THATS WHY I GOT MONEY
I NEED TO KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO EARN IT
RATHER THEN SPENDING MY PARENTS MONEY TO SHOP LIKE FUCKTART
!!!!!!!
I'm so not gonna care alr. Fuck y'all

2008-01-13T12:08:00.000-08:00

I HAD BBQ @ MY HS!

Leslie they all came.
SISTERS TOO! Vivian & peishan.
Eunice, guitar friend. yo,

Had fun and also being tortured by a xiaomeimei. I swear on one sit on my head before lor. I so damn angry sia. then start scolding my signature words. she still at there screaming and enjoying herself! WTF! Omgomg , then peishan asked me to relax -_- how could i relax likethat ?! she kicked my chibai when she walking. then i shout th f word and went out th room she say WHY MELODY JIEJIE SO ANGRY!!!!!!!! WHY!!!!. wah ccb want kick her ass la.

Intro a song, Glamorous.
Damn love that song. hahaha

If you ain't got no money take your broke ass home
You say: If you ain't got no money take your broke ass home
G-L-A-M-O-R-O-U-S, yeah G-L-A-M-O-R-O-U-S

[B-Section:]
We flying the first class
Up in the sky
Poppin' champagne
Livin' the life
In the fast lane
And I wont change
By the Glamorous, oh the flossy flossy

[chorus:]
The glamorous,
The glamorous, glamorous (the glamorous life)
By the Glamorous, oh the flossy flossy

[Verse:]
Wear them gold and diamonds rings
All them things don't mean a thing
Chaperons and limousines
Shopping for expensive things
I be on the movie screens
Magazines and boogie scenes
I'm not clean, I'm not pristine
I'm no queen, I'm no machine
I still go to Taco Bell
Drive through, raw as hell
I don't care, I'm still real
No matter how many records I sell
After the show or after the Grammies
I like to go cool out with the family
Sippin', reminiscing on days when I had a Mustang
And now I'm in...

[B-section then chorus]

[Ludacris:]
I'm talking Champagne wishes, caviar dreams
You deserve nothing but all the finer things
Now this whole world has no clue what to do with us
I've got enough money in the bank for the two of us
Plus I gotta keep enough lettuce
To support your shoe fetish
Lifestyles so rich and famous
Robin Leach will get jealous
Half a million for the stones
Taking trips from here to Rome
So If you ain't got no money take your broke ass home
G-L-A-M-O-R-O-U-S, yeah G-L-A-M-O-R-O-U-S

[B-section + chorus x2]

[Verse:]
I got problems up to here
I've got people in my ear
Telling me these crazy things
That I don't want to know (fuck y'all)
I've got money in the bank
And I'd really like to thank
All the fans, I'd like to thank
Thank you really though
Cause I remember yesterday
When I dreamt about the days
When I'd rock on MTV, that be really dope
Damn, It's been a long road
And the industry is cold
I'm glad my daddy told me so, he let his daughter know. [x3]

Those other bbq pics cant post.
blogger suck this moment.

okay
tatas
Xoxo

2008-01-10T22:00:00.000-08:00

LOL Simpsons crazy
HAHAHAHAHA

i've been going out much lately.Studying and stuff of cause. Going to limbang more then i could hardly imagine myself sitting at Mac wondering how to do th maths questions.Super not like me lor. I know you will be laughing all the way if i really study. i did study !!

Bugis also burn a hole in my pocket, and town too! hell lah, i can't spend much if not i think i'll bankrupt soon. I'm working at limbang mac during weekends and public hols :) MAYBE they called me already , tues going down for some stuff. yeap. hope i'll get the job , so i will save up the money to buy something with my OWN money. which is a good thing. hoho , first time. i'll work at bugis when i'm 16 , i SWEAR. i don't wanna work in th food industries , it will kill me SILENTLY. lol k i'm crapping.

Slack wiith ivan in the morning. yo, thanks. for accompanying me lah 'cos late for sch. didnt went mother they all panic teacher call -_-l

I'm so gonna say this
i don't fucking care!!!!!!!

CHIBYE I HATE MY CLASS AND MY CLASS TH TEACHERS _l_

& some you all were asking why i scolded someone in my msn
hoho. for ur info
THERE'S THIS FUCKING LADY FUCKING PUSH ME IN FROM JURONG EAST ALL THE WAY TO KRANJI
SHE FUCKING STEP MY FOOT, LEAN ON ME(KNN I HER WALL LEH) , PUSH HER BUTT TO MY CB . HIT MY BREAST . OMG HOW DULAN CAN I BE ? SURE GAN HER BACK FROM BEHIND LAH.WALAO CIBONG ANGRY SIAH! STILL DIAO ME SOMEMORE. WAH CIBONG I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING HER FACE TILL ROT SIA CBBBBBBBBBBBBBB KNNNNNNNNN PCBBBBBBBBB OMG. _l_ IF IM NOT A CIVILISED PERSON WAH SURE KICK HER CB PUA DIAO SIA asxdcdfvbghngbfd!@#$%^%$#@!
Okay.
Yanhan relax.
No big deal.
Just an old wrinkled step one OL person
Not worth you angry.
Relax.
okay feeling better already
*breathes.

okay. tata
more of th kbox vids post up next week yo.

Toodles.
Xoxo.

2008-01-05T20:42:00.000-08:00

I have no mood to do anything
ya fuckoff.

2008-01-04T07:49:00.000-08:00

Thank you jiamin for your spongebob purse!
collection alr.
lol
Keychain all this all spongebob
im crazy over this square thing
AHAHA

Let me see
my class was alright.
sitting in front of lina.
jovina said i come back from hols more shu nu alr.
OF CAUSE. im always been so GIRL
hahhahah
i need to write like an essay of 800 words.
kill me plz
it seems like is taking me hours to write that fuck compo
driving muiix ccrraziie!
i finally learned to play apologized on piano.
will play it soon :)

I miss sisters of cause.
yp peishan and vian. :)
and duh i love tila tequila. <3

Smoochies!
xoxo

2008-01-02T19:11:00.000-08:00

1st day of sch.
from what i read from syq's blog is happy
to me. NO LAH. i haven see my class kanna send home alr.
THANKs LAH IVAN FOR LAUGHING AT ME _l_

2nd day of sch.
WHICH IS TODAY.
im sick la. since 3am stomach pain =o
very perfect starting of th year isn't it.
to be sick and not going sch.

is only 30+ people in my class. or less maybe?
i didnt get to see well.
hope i'll love this class . and adapt to th environment w/o clans.
CLANS I KNOW YOU WILL BE TOUCHED.
hahaha

To my love♥
i dont know what th problem lies.
in you or in me.
if we have a problem we will solve it together okay.
even thought i never mention you to anyone.
like an " ai mei " to you..
but in my heart you know i love you always.
2511 , may not be forever.
but im willing to give everything to make it as long as i can
love you

smoochies.
xoxo

2007-12-31T07:30:00.000-08:00

My trip.
i dont think i wanna type all out.
i think is too much.
lol.

just mainly point out th things.

- Earthquake.
- Expensive EVERYTHING.
- Disgusting food
- everyday eat grass ( salad )
- BREAD ( 3 meals! )
- weather super cold

BAH!!!!!!

Met carene mama & daddy today.
then go over to bugis meet garfield -_- _l_
dont talk bout it.
met bel at dhouby and carene left with ahboyy.
went to paragon and stuff. ;)

<3

Aiming for th LV bag thingy. super cool! I LV oe it lor! :D

and i love bel.
thanks for today.
we talked alot.
finally get to go out with you in sucha long time.
go out more often okay. loves!

2007-12-30T01:58:00.000-08:00

Sad. but true.
really how im feeling
for my whole life.
god damnit -.-

Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.

You enjoy taking part in anything that may constitute fun and excitement. You need to be stimulated and need to feel that 'Life is worth living' and you are awaiting that stimulation and you don't particularly care where it comes from!

It's the old old story - I am misunderstood - my partner (be it in your private life or in business) just doesn't understand me and YOU also believe at this time that you are being completely MISUNDERSTOOD by one and all. It then obviously follows that you naturally feel inhibited and not appreciated. It is perhaps because of this belief that you feel compelled to stand back and let the rest of the world go by. As for developing a firm relationship - inwardly deep down in your subconscious mind you are wary of even trying to get close to another person because you feel that if you open up your heart and feelings you are sure to get hurt. Since you are living in a society where close relationships are the norm, you feel that there is that need to conform, but any close relationships of any magnitude that you may have tried in the past have unfortunately left you without any sense of emotional involvement.

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliche 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?

depressing :(

this is just an extra post.
blog ltr. ;) <3

2007-12-29T11:23:00.000-08:00

I'm back !!!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!!

i going to list the things i MISSED!

WATER. SG TAP WATER.
Water in turkey is hard -_- wash hair so difficult la wtf.
My room. (smell of room)
My bed. ( HEAVEN! )
My computer.
My "Singtel" connection lol
Exercising.
Chai tao kuey.
Fishball noodles.

People. Of cause
Sisters ferreVerx! .
YP BAOBEImuimuiixx . lolol
Vivian lai didododidodododiddodidododido
Peishan laopo !

Weiny baby ♥
Lena gf ♥
jiamin! haha come back soon from taiwan ;) bon voyage
Cats TWIN! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
SYQ~ ♥ classmate lagi. hahahaha
kaori hani. cb miss you so muchie! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

and of cos those who tagg-ed me.
cared for me.
;)
Missed me one also
ahaha

AND OF CAUSE!
thank those people who came to send me off
Yp & BF , SITTING ON A TREE K-I-S-S-I-N-G =Dhehe
Bel
Junming
Reuben
Esther
Oscar

and to those tour people that went with me.
to those who asked me to get well soon.
thanks alot alot!

i'll post the pictures and trip story next time.
kinda jet lag now.
lol, as is 6hrs before sg.
and on plane didnt slp to adjust my time
sleeping time!
<3 ;)

Half awake or half asleep ?
LOL
dont know!
later!
tata ,

xoxo s.

2007-12-21T20:51:00.000-08:00

4th day here.
ıntrenet ıs superrrrrr expensıve.
ım gnna go off soon
leavıng to another town :D
go le!
blog other tıme
bye ;3 muahhs!

2007-12-18T11:16:00.000-08:00

now is 11am.
8hours till i start checking in my luggage or so.
Uh 11pm flight.
BOOOOOOO :(

I'm bringing over my book. (WOW! BOOK LEH)
"What should i do with my life?"
intresting book ;) Damnit, im actually reading a book.lol

It takes around 7hrs from sg to fly over to dubai
and transit to turkey. thats an extra 4 hours.
lol fag
transit takes around 30min or 1hr to clean the plane.
aww, i lazy to leave my seat.
I'll be sitting window seat ( USUAL! AND ALWAYS )
and i hope turkey have shuai geges' to see :) HEHEHEHE
I mean my group of people. not those turkish-dontknow-speak-likewhat people.
lol i don't fancy euro guys ;)
Now airport rules damn sick. everything must declare.
those liquid ones. they scared of terrorist. -_-
liquid eyeliner can kill w0rhxx and lip gloss can kill too urhhhxx?!
LOL
i don't know. very mafan.

To school.
To anywhere.
To those i speak online alot but i don;t know you rl.
i'm MIA-ing real soon.
study comes first! :))))
boo.
i'll go sleep more or something.
my luaggage is pack-ed with maggie mee . cup noodles
i damn scared to eat their food ^x^
When i come back.
PICTURES. of cos by my veryvery nice nikon D80 (BIG!)
and hp pics of zilian-ing in hotel :)
MY LUAGGAGE TOO!! is pretty lol.
loves<3

I'll miss my precious recess buddy darlings' sisters! Yp,peishan,and of cos my crazy vivian LOL

muacks to all.

2007-12-17T01:58:00.001-08:00

As you can see.
This is a new blog right.
Closed down kutsuuai. no point.
i rather open a new blog and start new.
This blog isn't open so fast.
gonna take some time to move everyone here
and stop going to kutsuuai ;)
Tagboard don't have anyone to tag yet.
DUH , just have it on today only.
was real mad just now. my IE auto closed-_-'
So i need restart blog stuffs. BOO :(

Bought new mp3 ;)
M really happy bout it.

I find the earpiece is damn cool.
like two-sided likethat. ;) woahh!
and of cos pinkpinkpink!

Those pictures i promised during "kutsuuai's time" over dragons burfday ;)
REUBEN FACE EXPRESSION IS ALWAYS THE SAME LAH BLARDY!

Ohyeahh..i bought this spongebob wallet too.
Damn KoAi oh! ^_^
seems childish. ahah
dont care la :)

Flying to turkey tmr. awww.
miss me guys!
12 days in all. hope i cud find a intrenet cafe or intrenet kiosk in th hotel lobby or something!

xoxo
Tata ~